WAHAHAHA! Im gonna laugh because im so happy! Yesterday after posting up that post, hubby called me and apologised. But before that, he called me and asked if alan got pass me anything. I was confused and i ask what? Than he say he asked alan pass me 5 bucks. Small sum of money but huge meaning behind it which made me so so touched! Aww..
Reason behind the $5 is that he had only 5 dollars left but yet he gave it to me. Nothing big to you because i forgot his reason behind it. Haha.. When i ask him again, i`ll tell you. Hehe.. But one of the reason is because he wanted to ask alan to buy me some chocolate. Because recently, whenever he meets me, he would but chocolates for me! Hehe..So touched! Weeeeeee. He says he wanna bring me go eat my favourite chocolate. Yay! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.HEHEHE..im going crazy.. HE LOVES ME! HE LOVES MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Haha.bye bye
I LOVE MARCUS FOO TOON CHENG! MUACKS!
Hais..One word to describe how im feeling right now. Sad! I really dont understand, i dont understand why cant he just keep to the things he says. We quarrelled in the afternoon. He was supposed to take me along with him to Singapore Expo to watch something, but while i was putting on my make up, he asked me why i keep sticking to him, said i was troublesome and all. So i got angry and we quarrelled. I mean, which girl doesnt like to be with her bf all the time? I dun understand why all my fren`s bf always wanna be with them but not mine. All my sister`s are out with their boys..what about me? Stuck at home the whole day doing nothing. I was still so happy and thought of asking him to bring me out to dinner. Hah.. Forget it..im as good as saying im SINGLE but yet unavailable. He doesnt allow me to go out with my crush because she is always with boys. And the rest of my frens are spending their time with their boyfriends. Why did i say that he didnt keep to what he said? It is because when he left my house, i went to chase him because before he left, we sorta broke up. I sat down thinking how i would carry on with my life without him and realised i couldnt so i put down my fucking pride and went to chase him. He told me that he would come to find me later in the night or he would call me to go out and meet him when i didnt even ask him to and of cause i was happy. But now? He says that its too late and if he comes, he wouldnt be able to go home. I really dont understand. Whenever he is with his friends, no matter what time it is, if he misses his bus, he would just head to their house and spend the night there. But whenever he is with me, he must zhun zhun leave to catch the last bus, he would never be saying 'Aiya, nvm..i stay at your house'. Whenever he is with his friends, he doesnt like to go home but whenever he is with me, he always wanna go home. So what if me and him are together for so long? Long got use? NO IT DOESNT. Among me and my friends, me and him are tgt the longest, but yet, not a single bit loving. My friends all envy us for being together for so long..but i envy my friends because they are damn loving with their bfs.
While he told me he didnt wanna meet me anymore because he wants to go home, my heart immediatly broke. I should have known it already. I should not have even taken his words for real because the one that ends up rotting alone at home and crying like a crazy fuck is me. JUST ME ALONE. AND HE WOULD BE OUTSIDE ENJOYING HIMSELF. He called me and asked if i was sad.. i said NO, but aint he stupid or what? he couldnt even tell i was so damn heartbroken and sad. Whats the use of saying sorry to me so many times? It doesnt work on me anymore. If you wanna tell me something but yet you know you wouldnt be able to do it in the end, den dont. This way you can save your sorries and i can save my heart from breaking again. I was so fucking happy when you told me you were gonna find me later. When i msged you at ard 10+ and asked if you were still coming, you said yes, i was practically smiling to myself. Now? Im crying to myself. Im so fucking tired already. My fucking prelims are coming and its coming in about 1-2 weeks time and yet you wanna bring all these pain to me. I just wanna meet you more now so i can concentrate on my exams..why cant you just understand that? Hais.. fuck it. I just wish that my fucking heart can turn to stone so that i can be numb to everything and not care about a single fuck in this world.
Hais...
So refreshing. Just had my bath. Took a super long bath today, was listening to music so i took my time bathing. Hehe. Baby is now at ang mo kio with his friends. Siansations..he doesnt wanna entertain me, so i shall not bother about him. Was blasting my ears off with hubby`s noisy punk rock music..i wanted to try and take a liking to it so that me and hubby will not have so much differences but now there`s this buzz in my ear that goes 'ZZZ..ZZZ' non stop.
Hmms, my prelims are drawing near. Got the prelim timetable today. To be exact, its 16 more days to prelims and 40 more days to the N levels. Although the marks of prelim would not affect my n level grades, im still a little scared, afraid and worried for myself. After so much of playing, its time to be serious, sit down and study and yet i still cant get enough. I keep telling myself, ' Just sit down and study and hurry get over with everything' but yet, whenever i reach home, i would plop onto the bed and sleep. And afterwhich, i would indulge myself in the television before coming here to complain about how much i need to study! Man..i really need someone to motivate me and get my engine starting. Who wants to be my source of motivation? Hubby defintely cannot be because he is constantly playing and constantly playing truant in school. Even I cant get him to be 'ting hua'. Hehe. Im sucha LOUSY gf. Boooooo!
Today was quite relaxed in school except for the 2 periods whereby i had to stand because i didnt do my math homework. My maths is really what people call 'wu yao ke jiu'. No matter who teaches me or how hard i study for it, i`ll never be able to pass. I dun even know the basics. You give me 50 000 000 and i dunno how much it is..is it 50 hundred thousand? Or 50 million? Such primary school stuffs and i dont even know. I might as well go bang the wall! Hais..
And now i shall announce to the world wide web that im going on a diet because im fucking growing sideways and not UPwards. So if anyone sees me eating rubbish, please slap me hard and take the damn food away from me! HAHA. I know after i say this, i would post in another entry that i have eaten blah blah blah at blah blah blah and i wanna eat blah blah blah.. Lols..
Gonna meet baby tomorrow. Yay! Hehe.. My baby says he is sick and yet he is able to go out and run all around singapore! I`m listening to 'Clash', some thai song and it really brings back some fond memories. Memories of me and hubby sitting in ah lee`s car and he bringing us around singapore to eat or watch movie. Makes me smile thinking about it. Heh hehs. x)
Alrights, shall stop here.
Samantha <3 Marcus
Muacks!
BOO! So boreddd.. =( Hubby has gone to dover and would be going to MS later because he say he got dont know what daiji. Hope that no girls will flirt with him. =/ Haha. Hope nothing will happen if not i will *&(*#*^@�@ !
Hais..Quarrelled with hubby yesterday. Made him cry. Omg..never would i think that he would shed his tears for me. Made him cry today again and he cried untill my pillow became so wet. Hais.. Sorry baby. I will cherish you and you know i need you alot, you`re my bolster, i cant sleep without you and i always need you to be there for me. Remember what you said to me? you said ' Today, on saturday, 12.24am, i promise you i will take care of you forever and dont let anyone bully you'. You must do what you`ve promised and take care of me ok? I dont want any other pple to be taking care of me, i only want you..i only want you to stand up for me when others bully me. Okay dear? Dont do stupid things and get yourself in trouble. I really will not know what to do should anything bad happen to you. You are already half of my life, without you, my life wouldnt be whole. I need you alot, you are my life, my soul and my boy! x) Hehe
Wells, after quarrelling and all, we patched things up and we went to dinner together. Ate at 'Siam kitchen'. The food there isnt very nice. I dont think its actually worth the money. Hehs. =X Went to FourLeaves and bought mini buns and afterwhich headed to KFC to buy cheese fries for my sister. Hubby accompanied me back home, went to pang sai and left my house. Now i miss him like fuck and i cant contact him because his HP battery is dead. Ahh.. TORTUROUS! x(
Shall upload the photo me and baby took today.
Hubby think he fighter! Heh hehs.
Me busy snapping away while hubby was talking on the phone. He look so gong dai dai! So cute!
Me,Myself and I. Last one look like pig eh! <(^(o0)^)>
Lastly, presenting me and hubby! Hehe..
My baby is not photogenic. If anyone has seen him in real life, he is better looking. x) Hehe
Alrighty..Shall stop blabbering on.
Baby i love you!
Sammie <3 Mao Mao. x) Hehe.. Muacks!
YAY YAY! Tomorrow`s already friday! Yipee! Can see my baby. Miss him so so muchhhhh! He is such a sweetie now, listens to me more now. If i ask him go home after school he would, and if i ask him to tell me whatever he does while im sleeping, he would! Haha.. So so happy with the way we are now.. =D
Anyways, im having the monthly thing that all woman dread. Really feel so dirty and uncomfortable. Ohh, there`s this crazy teacher in my school now, and she is really crazy, think she needs to see a doctor or smth. Yesterday, she came to relief ms ho because ms ho was sick. And because she looked so funny and her sense of dressing was so wierd, i kept laughing. So she said this to me..
Her: 'You wanna come out and teach?'
Me: 'Wad? Laugh got wrong ah?'
Her: 'I didnt say laughing was wrong, you pin point it yourself'
Me: 'Than? I laugh cannot ah? I laugh thats why you ask me if i wanna teach wad.. School also never say laughing against the rule'
I talked to her in a fucking guai lan tone.Then she lan lan so she scolded me about not wearing my fucking school uniform properly and threatened to send me to the principal`s office. So i just gin her and she walked away. Then after lesson, she came to me and SHOOK my hands telling me she has nothing against me. She also gave a fucking long lecture to my class about her being 25 yrs old w/o any goals in life and about us not liking literature when none of my classmates said that they didnt like lit. When she came in to my class, she just shoot her mouth off and scolded everybody. We were supposed to do pair work but yet not allowed to talk. Crazy bitch. And because of this incident about her shaking my hands, every one calls her my best friend. WTF! And today, she came in again, and told us about some Mr brown going against the government or smth and drew a whole mind map about life.She also talked about all the government stuffs, about prices raising and all..really SIAO one lehh, i think woodbridge just lost a patient. Lols..
Hmms, gonna bathe soon and wait for my baby to call me.
Love love <33
Sammie <3 Marcus!
Today went to eat Gelare with rebekah. Ate ice cream mudpie. Wasnt what i thought it would be. I thought it would be something fucking chocolately with nice cold ice cream on top of it but it wasnt. It was some ice cold hard ice cream block. Not very nice lehh.. Haha..waste my moolahhh! =(
Wells, i think my message knocked some sense into my dumb hubby`s head and he is indeed treating me better. After he read it, he msged me some sweet stuffs and now he treats me better. =) Heh heh heh! We`re kinda back to our sweet times and i hope we`ll stay like this. Occasional quarrels would be okay but not all the time ehs? Actually, i feel quite bad typing like this about my love r/s and about hubby. The way i type it may sound like our r/s is like really bad and the way he treats me is like really bad too but actually..it isnt that bad. Hubby`s treats me quite well at times and he super dont like people to bully me especially bangalas that keep giving me pervertic stares. Eww! I remember once when i quarrelled with him and i sat alone w/o him and he stood some distance away from me. At little india, some bangalas came in and they stood infront of me. I closed my eyes to catch a quick nap and hubby saw them pointing at me. When i opened my eyes, i saw one of them telling his frens something and one by one, they all turned around and looked at me. I peeked at hubby from the corner of my eyes and i saw tht he was staring at them with his chest out, like getting ready to fight. But he didnt lahh, because he wanna teach me a lesson about leaving him alone and getting 'bullied' by those bangalas. But in the end, hubby said he felt damn bad because he just let someone he love so much kena stare by those pple. Hehe..So he is actually quite protective of me.. and now whenever i am with him, i stick beside him like his precious little girl. Hahas!
Hmms, on monday which was yesterday, hubby brought me out and we ate at 'Thai express'. Than we walked around Plaza Singapura. Hubby bought for me my favourite 'Marks and Spencer never melting ice cream' for me. teeheehee. There was nothing to do there so i suggested going home. Hubby accompanied me home and accompanied me watch my nine o`clock show before heading home. And hubby did something which really touched my heart and it is actually an action of his that showed me that he loved me. I gave hubby a girl handphone keychain and i had the boy side. When you put it tgt, the girl would kiss the boy. Hubby lost the magnet of the girl mouth and he was looking high and low for it. I told him it was okay but he still insisted on finding it. When i told him to stop, he gave me this very cute but sad look and lied on the bed showing me his puppy eyes. So so cute and i was so so touched! Lols..And while me and hubby were walking home tgt, he told me that if we could stead for another 2 more years, he would tattoo my name on his body. why 2 more years? its because he wanna be sure of my love for him. =D Hubby also said that if he tattooed my name, he wouldn`t regret because he love me but if he tattooed another girl`s name, he would! AWWWW! Haha..Well well well..im also okay if hubby doesnt tattoo my name because im only disturbing him when i asked him to tattoo my name because he was planning on getting a dragon on his back. hehs.. =x Alrights, i shall stop here now and go take a bath because i think i stink! Haha..Sayos!
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Girlgirl`: I wont ever leave him. If you were in my shoes, you would know. He gives me a special feeling which i have never had before. I dont know why whenever he treats me bad, i still dont mind because i know i cant do without him. Hehs.. =x Anyways, thanks for your advice. =) Cheers!
Sammie <3 Marcus!
Fuck it! Such a boring day.
Well, supposed to meet him today but guess wad?! We`re not meeting anymore. Ha-de-ha-ha! Wads his reason? He said this to me when i asked if he was still meeting me ' So late alrdy you still wanna meet meh?' LOLS! It was 4+ 5+ only. Whenever i meet you on weekdays, wad time do i meet you? 7+ 8+.. Now 4+ 5+ you come and say late? Wanna stay on with your brothers den say.. No need beat around the bush ok?
Now we quarrel like fucking everyday and if it continues.. ITS OVER! I really cant stand it any longer. Fucking CB. He wanna go paikia all the way den go.. I also cannot do anything anyways. I am in NO FUCKING POSITION TO FUCKING ASK HIM TO DO ANYTHING BECAUSE HE DOESNT FUCKING TREAT ME AS HIS GF. IM JUST A FUCKING SPARE OF HIS. FUCK MY LIFE AND FUCK ME PPLE. I FUCKING HATE TO FUCKING FEEL THIS WAY. NOT I WANNA HATE HIS FRIENDS OR WAD BUT WHY ARENT THEY HELPING AT ALL? WANNA SEE US BREAK THAN HAPPY IS IT? OR MAYBE THEY DID HELP JUST THAT MARCUS FOO DOESNT WANNA CALL ME.. FINE IT THAT IS SO. IM FINE IF HE WANNA SEE THIS DAMN PATHETIC R/S OF OURS GOING DOWN THE FUCKING CB DRAIN. MY HEART IS FUCKING IN A MESS AND IT IS FUCKING PAIN. I FEEL LIKE CRYING BUT WHATS THE FUCKING USE WHEN HE DOESNT FUCKING CARE? EVER SINCE HE LEFT TECK WHYE AND JOINED THE DUNNO WHERE, HE FUCKING NEGLECT ME..ALL HE KNOW IS PAIKIA PAIKIA PAIKIA. WHATS SO GREAT BEING A FUCKING PAIKIA?! WANNA BE PAIKIA ALL THE WAY THAN DONT HAVE A GF BECAUSE I TELL YOU..NO GIRL WANTS HER FUCKING BF TO NEGLECT HER. I REALLY CANT STAND IT ANY LONGER..IM FUCKING GOING TO BREAK DOWN ALREADY YET HE DOESNT CARE..ALL MY CRYING AND NAGGING IS JUST KAOPEI KAOBU. IF YOU DUN WAN ME TO CARE ANYMORE I WONT. JUST DONT REGRET. FUCKING CBBBBBBB! FUCK THIS FUCKING WORLD. IM SO FUCKING IN PAIN AND NO FUCKING FUCKED UP PERSON CARES.. NOT EVEN THE FUCKING PERSON I LOVE. HE ONLY KNOWS HOW TO CAUSE THE PAIN AND LEAVE ME ALL ALONE....... FUCKKKK LAHHHHH. PCB. I HATE MYSELF NOW AND I HATE MY FUCKING LOVE LIFE CAUSE IT FUCKING SUCKS. I AM FUCKING CRYING LIKE A CRAZY FUCKED UP BITCH WAITING FOR HIM TO CALL ME BUT YET HE IS OVER THERE ENJOYING HIS FUCKING SELF. WHY CANT YOU JUST SPARE A FUCKING THOUGHT FOR ME MARCUS FOO? WHY WHY WHY? YOU WAN US TO BE IN THIS STATE OR EVEN BE OVER DEN YOU HAPPY IS IT? WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS HURT ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN.. CANT YOU SEE ALL THE FUCKING SCARS YOU HAVE FUCKING LEFT IN MY HEART? WHY CANT YOU EVER MAKE ME HAPPY FOR ONCE? YOU KNOW ITS DAMN EASY TO MAKE ME HAPPY BUT YET YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING TO MAKE ME HAPPY. ALL YOU DO IS FUCKING HURT ME REPEATEDLY..CANT YOU SEE ALL THE HURTS AND TIREDNESS IN MY EYES WHEN I LOOK AT YOU? CANT YOU SEE HOW MUCH HURT YOU HAVE CAUSED ME? WHY DO YOU ALWAYS PUSH ME TO KENNY WHEN I FUCKING DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING OR ANY FEELINGS FOR HIM. DO YOU DETEST ME SO MUCH TO THE EXTENT THAT SEEING ME IN PAIN MAKES YOU HAPPY? WHY CANT I FUCKING MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU JUST FOR ONE FUCKING TIME? YOU HAVE REALLY FUCKING HURT ME SO DEEP THIS TIME AND I REALLY CANT TAKE THE FUCKING PAIN. WHEN YOU MEET ME..ALL YOU EVER THINK IS FUCK FUCK FUCK.. HAVE YOU EVER MET ME JUST BECAUSE YOU WANNA SEE ME? CANT YOU SEE IM REALLY PUTTING IN SO MUCH INTO THIS R/S THAT IM SO FUCKING TIRED? IS IT BECAUSE I WANNA MEET YOU SO MUCH THAT YOU THINK I CANT LIVE W/O YOU? PLS STOP HURTING ME BECAUSE MY HEART CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER. I WANT THE OLD YOU BACK. I DUWAN MY LOVED ONE TO BE A FUCKING BAD BOY..I DUWAN YOU TO GET INTO ANY FUCKING TROUBLE WITH THE LAW..YOU NEED I FUCKING NEED YOU AND PLS DONT TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT PLS..I KNOW IM NOT PRETTY OR CUTE NOR DO I HAVE A FABULOUS FIGURE..I AM NOT FIT FOR YOU I KNOW BUT I REALLY FUCKING LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE FUCKING HEART. IF DIGGING OUT MY HEART IS THE ONLY WAY TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU..I WOULD. I REALLY MISS THE OLD YOU..WHERE DID IT GO? PLS COME BACK..I REALLY MISS THE OLD YOU..I REALLY DO..hais.. ( ::"-":: )
I guess im really not suited to be in love.
Second update for the day. Im so fucking bored and my heart hurts real badly now. I`ve got no one to pour out my sorrows or problems to. Hais..I guess we`re gonna be over soon.
We just quarrelled not long ago. About stupid stuffs again. It was he that kept using k**** to irritate me. Firstly, i have never even flirt nor had a fling with him. I only played with him when i was a young girl. I knew him way back and to be exact, when i was primary 4. I have never even talked to him ever since i was sec 1. Maybe only 2-3 times last yr..and that was on MSN. Its not that you dunno and i`ve even told you about it. Secondly, if i love him, would i even be so devoted and committed to this r/s of ours? its a one year plus r/s.. why cant i even get something so simple like trust from you? Whats there for you to be jealous? Maybe you can be jealous if i said i liked him or if i was his GF, but NO.. its the opposite..you know that the one i love is you and you know that im your gf. Why must you keep pushing me to him? You keep wanting me to say things you dislike and in the end, it turns out to be my fault. Its not like you`ve never said a girl was pretty before. I admit i said he was handsome..but it doesnt mean that just because he is handsome means that i will fall in love with him right? If that is so, every handsome person i meet, i would already fall in love with them. Tell me which girl would be so stupid, tht whenever she goes out and there is guys, she would go and tell her bf? and if she doesnt, she would feel so guilty and in the end, she would still say it out..go and ask my crush ok..go ask how tiong xim i am to you..dont say she my good friend will cover up for me..but thats what i really do. Go and ask around.. i may not be the best gf or a very good gf..but one thing for sure is that im serious with you and i really want to be with you for all my life. It may be too early to say so but its you that i wanna see spending the rest my life with me. I really dont know how we turned out to be this way? I`ve msged enoch and asked him to ask you to call me..but yet you havent.. Whats this supposed to mean? you wanna leave me or you just wanna me feel hurt and sad? Why the fuck are you treating me like this? I really feel that i dont deserve all this at all. I tire the fuck outta myself just to cook for you..and i tried to control my temper..i have also tried to give in and stopped pestering you to meet me anymore.. but you are really taking advantage of it aint you? Your friends are always number one to you. Got problems you pia down..yet you`ve never really cared about how i would feel. When i had problems, no doubt that you pia down too..but that time the person put the place is serangoon garden mac and i only told you that i suspected someone from my class. What you did was only to ask me to get that girl out.. What if it wasnt her? you didnt even accompany me down to serangoon garden. The person in the end dua-ed me..but shouldnt you have gone down in case the person appeared? That day when i asked you to meet me.. you said you were tired and didnt feel like going out..FINE. But the next day.. you pon school and went to the hospital to visit enoch and even spent the night with him. If it was me..you would have already fucked me off. That day when we quarrelled..you told me to fuck off your life..i seem so insignificant to you.. not important at all.. but yet, you would always tell me how much you love me and how you cant afford to lose me..how contridictary? Now here i am waiting like a fucking fool for your call when you might be there enjoying yourself. If i really was something in your eyes, you would have alrdy called me. but maybe its your frens or maybe its me that is jealous of your friends because you spend so much time with them. I dont know.. Hais..all i know is that my heart fucking hurts now. Love fucking sucks because it hurts and yet being single sucks too because there`s no one to love you. I feel as thou my feelings are fading for him but yet, whenever we quarrel my heart feels so fucking pain. My mind is full of thoughts. I also get a phobia whenever he doesnt call me or answer my call because i`ll feel that he is gonna leave me. Why do i have this phobia? its because the other time, before he broke off with me..thats what he did to me. He`ll never know when to cherish me unless im fucking banged by a car or fucking in a coma or maybe when im fucking lying in my coffin. AHH..FUCK ME FUCK THIS WORLD. If he doesnt call me by 6am..i guess i get his msg. Hais.. FORGET IT!!!!
If only we all can be fuck its and not care about anything in this world.
Ah.. i`m so fucking bored. Its a saturday night and here i am rotting myself away. So wastedddddddddddd!
Anyways, hubby came to find me yesterday night.. cooked for him and enoch. Was so freaking tired and i didnt take my 'oh-so-important' afternoon nap which i take everyday just because i wanted to cook for him. Walked to hg mall to buy his favourite 'Lays Classic' potato chips and bought some ingredients for cooking. When i was about to prepare to cook, i realised that there wasnt enough oil. So i walked all the way back to hg mall just to get oil and buy some soft drinks. Im such a good gf. Lols..
Finished cooking and realised that i`ve made a big mess outta the kitchen and that i`ve cooked a very sausagy meal. Ha-de-ha-ha! Cooked sweet and sour sausage with crab meat, lucheon meat with sausage cooked with onions and chilli, hubby`s favourite fried dried radish and fried sotong paste dumplings. Lols, all convenience food lahhh! x( BOO! Am sucha lousy cook..so much for being a f&n student.
Owells, hubby was supposed to bring me out today. He stayed over at my place and he was suppose to take me to eat 'Pepper lunch' today for dinner. But last minute, his friend called and got some 'daiji'. So yes, we didnt go out in the end cos i was so fucking dulan! Hais, his friends always like to chu problems whenever im with my hubby. Why cant the problems come when he`s not with me? Why cant i fucking have him to myself for just one fucking day w/o them interupting our lovey doveys ? Hais, not that im talking bad about them or wad.. but it always seems that whenever he has to meet me, there would be problems coming up. If not, he would be talking on the phone with them leaving me all alone or if not, when we meet each other, his whole bunch of friends would be there. It is not that i do not like them, its just that i wanna have some private time with him, just the two of us.. thats all. No girls would like going out with her BF with all his friends tagging along, surely you`ll want some time alone with him. Unless the girl likes it because she likes her bf`s friend or smth, or maybe she wanna know more guys thru her bf..whatever it is lah uh, that girl must be a despo or smth..if no, i gurantee that no girls like it.
And he is so so heartless..MARCUS IS SO HEARTLESS! He made me angry and its his fault this time. Yet, he didnt have to initiative to apologise. And best, he didnt even bother to call me. So here i am waiting for his dumb call! Ahhhh! Fuck it...
Haven`t been updating for long. Hais.. Dont know how to describe the way me and marcus are now. Shan`t be bothered about him not wanting to meet me anymore. If he doesnt wanna meet me, there`s no point forcing him or scolding him cos in the end, if we meet, he`ll give me one bao qing tian face. Hais.. shall not say wad happened btwn us bcos its a long story but we just quarrelled ytd. The words he said left a very big scar on my heart. My heart hurts.. Hais.. thou i may put up a strong front to him and my friends, deep down, it still hurts.. No one can make me feel better except him. Hais.. Shall leave everything to fate.. 'yi qie sui yuan'.. What`s meant to be mine will be and what`s not will eventually go away. I pray deep down he would be meant to be mine.
Prelims are coming soon, and n level would soon approach. Im so afraid but yet i still cant get enough of FUN. I think i totally screwed up my n level oral =S.. Hais. SUAN LE!! I guess i better pull up my socks for now and study hard.=)
Alrights, i just hope that everything between us would be fine. I miss him lots, i really do.. Hais....
当全世界不理我 , 只有你不可以不理我.. =(
Thinking that there would be school tomorrow, i feel so SIANNNNN ! Arghs..
Hmms, hubby is sleeping now. He`s so naughty! Didnt go to school for 2 days alrdy. But he says he`s sick so i hope he`s feeling better now.
And from today onwards, im racist to bangalas! They are always getting me into trouble. Arghhh! Shall not say what happened but they always get me into trouble with my hubby! >;( Anyways, i went towning with crushie ytd. And i was thinking of finding hubby if he woke up because its he lives damn close to town. But apparently, when i was going home and was at KOVAN alrdy, hubby called me. So i sat the train all the way back to hougang and sat a bus all the way to his house and i was so so fucking sleepy! Haha.. IM SUCH A GOOD LAOPO! Woahhh!
Had a nice long talk with my baby. Just the both of us. Hubby says im the first girl he really tiong xim to. Im so toucheddd! But hey laogong, i also damn tiong xim to you okay! Hehe..So we were just talking, hugging and kissing the night away. But so sad, i had to leave him so soon. Left his house area ard 12+am and took a cab home. Washed myself up and talked to hubby before sleeping. Aww.. talking about my baby, i miss him so much now! =(
Alrights, i shall stop here alrdy.
I love my cute lil` pumpkin baby! <33 Muacks!
Hmms, have not been blogging for long because of school. Really tiring! Haha. My lifestyle in school is always the same. Waking up to bathe and brush my teeth, drag myself to school, climb up the really long HILL, try to stay awake during all lessons and finally, when the inspirational bell rings, i would get my ass out of school and drag it home. And when i reach home, i would just PLOP onto bed and sleep. Haha.
Hubby came over to my house on thursday. He fetched me from school and upon reaching my house, he fell asleep immediatly and only woke up once to eat his dinner and afterwhich, he went back to sleep and slept all the way till the next morning. Sucha pig (^(o0)^)! Haha.. So the next morning, which is friday, no one was at home except for him and me and he woke me up and we went to Hougang Mall tgt because i was gonna cook for him! x) Hehe. I feel like we`re really married, staying tgt in a house and going grocery shopping tgt. Teeheehee. Bought sausages and his favourite dried radish. Bought a durian and mango roll from angie the choice and our very-nice-to-drink honey green tea! Hehe.. Headed home and i cooked while hubby watched TV. Ate tgt den we went to bathe and headed out.
Went to city hall to meet enoch. Headed to 'Millenia Walk' because my school is holding some 90-hr music marathon and i wanted to go there to take a look. After looking, we headed to PS. Finally ate my Ajisen and i`m not gonna eat there ever again! Felt like vommitting after eating and it burnt a BIG BIG hole in both me and hubby`s pockets! Hehs.. So hubby and enoch accompanied me home and after that, hubby and enoch headed to hubby`s house.
Aww..I miss my hubby so much now ! =( Cant wait to see him tomorrow =D. Yay!
Shall stop here xD
Loving my baby since 26march05! Muacks <3
